Oh dear! I haven't posted anything in such a long time...the summer was somewhat of a whirlwind so I unfortunately was not able to blog as much as I intended, however, I am now closer to the Lord than I ever have been.
A couple months ago, I discerned to the married life through the grace and love of the Holy Spirit. I feel such a huge amount of peace through this discernment, there's no more flip flopping between what I am supposed to be doing with my life...for the first time, I feel like I truly am on the right track! I am trying even more than ever to focus on being happy with where I am at in my life...1 Corinthians 7:17 says that "everyone should live as the Lord has assigned" and verse 26 says "that it is a good thing for a person to remain as he is" until the Lord decides to change the scenery, so to say. I feel that one cannot be happy in a relationship with someone until he or she knows what it is like to be single, and to embrace being single. Being in a relationship with someone who is constantly afraid of being single again can be exhausting. One can't go from one relationship to another without any break in between...it just isn't healthy. If you only know yourself with another person, how do you know who you truly are and what your own path is? In addition, one cannot love another fully and completely until he or she loves him or herself and knows God's will for him or her.
In other news, one of my childhood friends, Jennie, got engaged just a couple weeks ago, on Christmas Eve. We are all very excited for her and her future husband, Tim. They plan to marry on August 7th, which seems to be coming closer and closer each day, though it is only January at the time. Their love for Christ and one another will keep them together forever, I'm sure of it. With some couples you can just see the love; Jennie and Tim are what I like to call "forever couples". You can tell that they are in it for the long haul.
I have recently re-realized the importance of a couple of my friends. Beef is spunky, hilarious and beautiful. We can talk for hours when it seems like mere minutes. She truly emulates the woman who I want to be. Kunk is like my other half. She is the type of person who will listen for hours without ever interrupting...I can tell her anything and everything and I know that she will never judge me about any of it. I feel like these two women are what I aspire to be...they are the big sisters who I never had. I love them with all my heart and we can tell that we will be friends forever.
I think what I like the best about our friendship is how entirely open it is. We aren't afraid to open up to one another because we trust each other completely. We also are completely comfortable with telling each other how we feel. We love each other more than words can describe and tell each other so. It's like we're our own little family. We three are so extremely alike, yet different in so many ways that we can learn from one anothers experiences.
Kunk, Beef and I were in the FOCUS program that I talked about earlier in my posts. Kunk and I have recently left the leadership roles we were once in, however, if not for this amazing organization, we all would not be friends. It just goes to show how truly amazing and perfect God's plan for us is. We may think that we are walking alone in this journey, but it is far from that. The Lord is guiding us with each and every step and he knows where we are going to end up. Trust in the Lord is the most essential thing that I have learned this semester and I am eternally grateful for this lesson.
